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Note : Wed Aug 13 12:37:49 CDT 2003 The wall has been archived. See archive #12 for the last set of entries. my life has changed recently and I am looking for online meetings if you know of any please send list of e-mails
until then
Phil C
Anonymous <jackbrettnathan@hotmail.com>
york st pa.
westminster, md USA - Thursday, July 15, 2004 at 09:01:12 (EDT)
Notice how most of these people are from TN? and i have even
noticed a person from OR. hahaha. its cuz we have nothin better to
do w/ our crazy lil time.
Kaela O'Dell <winorlose_oi@hotmail.com>


Oak Ridge, TN USA - Wednesday, July 14, 2004 at 15:48:26 (EDT)
As of today (July 12/04), I am 1485 days sober. I was a chronic relapser before. I have since embraced God's presence in my life, and am so grateful for this gift of sobriety. I am not religious, nor do I think this program should be religious. God to me is the sum of all things. Consider the poets call to see God in a blade of grass. Now, I see God everywhere, including in the faces of all people. Everyone owes it to themselves to commit to this program.
Anonymous <astral-k@shaw.ca>
frontrunners
Calgary, Canada - Monday, July 12, 2004 at 21:02:05 (EDT)
I'm not an Alcholic but my friend is, and I need help in trying to get her some help. Where can I go in the Philadelphia, Pennsylvania area? If she does not get help soon I know our relationship will end. I love her but I can't stand see her destroy herself.
Anonymous <f_shine@msn.com>


Philadelphia , PA USA - Wednesday, July 07, 2004 at 12:54:33 (EDT)
Hello to all I have been clean for 102 days. It took almost 15 years to leave drugs alone but 20 years and a 2nd dui with causing serious bodily injury to sober this addict / alcoholic up. I am grateful for each day I have remaining in this life. I have a four yr old daughter, but may have to be away from her for awhile. I am facing a some years in jail and I know that everything happens for a reason, but the consequences are so damn hard to face. I feel like a bomb about to explode. I want to help teenagers to not make a life like have. I have wasted so much time, energy and money that I feel totally stupid just thinking of the bad times i had, paid with all i just said. I really would like to help guide someone in the right direction. I have been helping raise money for a womens recovery center. But, I feel as if I haven't done enough to pay back what I have taken from society. If anyone has some ideas what I can do to help please e mail me. I have the need to help someone stay sober for a minute, an hour,a day, a month or a year. Thank you and to all addicts still suffering, I pray each day for you and your families.
Anonymous <raabbaby@yahoo.com>


constantine, mi USA - Saturday, July 03, 2004 at 23:04:41 (EDT)
Very attractive and well put together site. Lots of information for everyone. I'll "keep coming back". You can visit us at http:\\wwww.aaregina.com . Keep up the good work.
Stan M. <fugro8@netscape.net>
South Hillsdale
Regina, SK Canada - Wednesday, June 30, 2004 at 13:55:58 (EDT)
there no mistakes in life, only lessons. growth is a process of trial and error. what you make of life is up to you. you have all the tools and resources you need. what you do with them is up to you. sobriety has given me the abiality to choose to drink or not to drink. since april 25, 1981, i have chosen not to drink.
carole R. <grammyrowe1944@evenlink.com>


sunbury, pa. USA - Tuesday, June 29, 2004 at 15:14:20 (EDT)
When the NHS did nothing, one call to Alcoholics Anonomous and they were round to sort me out. Best thing I ever did. Without them I would still be in a drunken stupor
Steve <swl_cheadle@yahoo.com>


Manchester, UK - Thursday, June 24, 2004 at 14:19:25 (EDT)
I had lived and shivered many years. I stood in the sunlight at last. Thank you GOD
Troy Frazier

Nashville, TN USA - Friday, June 18, 2004 at 11:38:18 (EDT)
Hello FELLOWSHIPmates,

I was searching for AA meetings on the Seychelles Islands in the Indian ocean. That is how I found you. Just got 19 years of recovery. I am living my vision today. I worked 12 years as a counselor. Had cancer in 2nd year. Have been in debtors anonymous for ten years. Enjoying myself traveling around the world. I can say I am actualizing my recovery. ALL ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Love Capt. Gene
Capt. GENE the Merchant Marine <eugene_greenan@yahoo.com>
Milton Parkway
milton , ma USA - Friday, June 18, 2004 at 09:38:29 (EDT)
When the Big Book was published in April of 1939 there were only two groups, and we had no name. Bill called us the “nameless bunch of drunks.” (I love the history of AA because without it where would we be?)
Jay D <jsticks@charter.net>
Wilson County Friendship Group
USA - Monday, June 14, 2004 at 20:40:52 (EDT)
Please call me at 615-593-1750! I need help getting involved in a program!
Jimbo Kelley

Nashville, TN USA - Thursday, June 10, 2004 at 14:45:12 (EDT)
Hey there! I am just writing to say thank you! I turn 3 on Friday June 4th and I am just so thankful for A.A. I hope to continue to service as a messenger for what miracles can be accomplished when folks decide to get and stay sober through the 12 steps of AA.
Sincerly a 3 year old miracle.
Tiffany
Tiffany
Our Primary Purpose in Seattle
Seattle , WA USA - Friday, May 28, 2004 at 14:16:42 (EDT)
My name is Peter P. and I have been given an oppertunity,yet
again,to live life.I have been delivered from the throws of
alcoholisum and also a life sentence behind bars.I pleaded with GOD to show me that he was real.He answered in a big way.......
Anonymous <peter@bgnbusa.com>
Pompano Beach Group
Pompano Beach, FL USA - Friday, May 28, 2004 at 12:54:16 (EDT)
My life was so empty before I became a member of AA. I am forever grateful of all I have been given especially and most importantly my relationship with GOD. I love to be sober!! Thanks AA.
Vicki T. <whitsend.1@juno.com>
60
Arnold, MO USA - Monday, May 24, 2004 at 16:49:35 (EDT)
I have truly never felt a part of anything ! This is a eye opener for anyone to see. From the days of hiding our disease from coworkers and the public I can be a proud member of something.I am forever grateful for this program and LIFE!!!!!
pete w. <whitsend.1@juno.com>
60
arnold, mo USA - Monday, May 24, 2004 at 16:44:57 (EDT)
I know this is for AA... But it is a fellowship. i have almost 8 months clean and serene!! i owe it all to everyone in these two programs!!!!
VICKY
We do Recover
Penn Hills, pa USA - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 13:00:38 (EDT)
Just Surfing...
Anonymous

USA - Thursday, May 20, 2004 at 04:33:07 (EDT)
Do not stop coming back, you might miss the miracle!!!!!!!
Anonymous <Cathdenjil@aol.com>
Sobriety First
Overland Park, Ks. USA - Saturday, May 15, 2004 at 22:37:56 (EDT)
I am one of the victims. I hope I have a right to be here, but I have allowed three people to hurt me in so many different ways. I was first physically, mentally, and sexually abused by my natural father. The sexual abuse began when I was nine years old and ended when I was 15. The physical and mental abuse began earlier in life and continued until he finally left the home. My father would beat my mother every single weekend for more than six years. He would often make me and my siblings watch as he beat her relentlessly. He would pull me by my hair across the kitchen floor, bust my mouth and hit me across the side of my head. He did this to my siblings as well. He was so abusive and I felt as if no one would ever understand what a messed up world I lived in. I am 36 years old now. I am unable to bear children because of the sexual abuse I endured. I have regular nightmares from when I was a child. I married a guy that was also an alcoholic, he cheated on me, then divorced me for a 16 year old girl. Many years later, I allowed myself to reenter that relationship, only to find out he was addicted to meth by that time. He was mentally abusive and would often rant and rave for 3 and 4 days at a time. I finally ended that relationship for good.

I write all of this to say, if you have ever loved a child, don't ever return to the alcohol or drugs. The scars it left me run deep. No child, no person should ever have to endure abuse at the hands of an addict.

I have began re-building my life, but all with a different purpose. I am no longer going to accept less than what I deserve in life, and I deserve all that is good.

PLEASE: THE DAMAGE YOU DO TO THE INNOCENT ONES IS UNFORGIVABLE, ASK ME, MY FATHER RECENTLY HAD A STROKE, AND I DIDN'T SHED A TEAR. I HAVEN'T EVEN SPOKEN TO HIM AFTER LEARNING OF IT.
One of the Victims

TN USA - Thursday, May 06, 2004 at 20:38:02 (EDT)
GREAT WALL!!!! EASY DOES IT!!!!
DIANE C. <cdcone@tds.net>


ANTIOCH, TN USA - Wednesday, May 05, 2004 at 00:24:31 (EDT)
I need some one to 13th step me I am pretty, 26, black with bad body odor. Any takers?
Kiesha <poodiema@yahoo.com>


nashville, Tn USA - Tuesday, May 04, 2004 at 23:05:46 (EDT)
l love this program and I love my new found serenity and new bf. It can happen to you!
Anonymous <Iloveaaandd@yahoo.com>
Back Room Group
nashville, Tn USA - Tuesday, May 04, 2004 at 23:03:22 (EDT)
Who ever reads this. My story goes like this I have 3 children who are adults now. I met the guy I have been living with for about 20 years. He help me with raising the 3 children who are not his. We have been a disfunctional family for most of the 20 years. He like to get drunk drive and get in trouble with the law. He has no drivers licensens because of this. The very last time he had his licensen for a week and he lost them in the same week. Now he rides a 3 wheel trike and he has been in two accidents due to drinking which sucks if you know what I mean. I can not change him I know he has to change himself. But I can not stand by and watch him hurt some individual out there who has to avoid him when he makes a mistake in his driving the trike and gets into a acident if you know what I mean. So do I call the local athorities and get him off the streets. Please give me some advice.
Carol Saal <luckydogg104 @yahoo.com>


Schofield, WI USA - Monday, May 03, 2004 at 16:46:05 (EDT)
I am looking for the dates and the place for Music City Convention (couldn't swear that is the correct name). It's held in Nasville July 4th, 2004
Bev Swain <m_goose42240@earthlink.net>
Hungry Spirits- Hopkinsville, KY
Hopkinsville, KY USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 23:02:58 (EDT)
Hey All!!!

What a wonderful experience AA has been. Who would have thought others just like me could help me achieve any kind of decent sobriety?? I sure don't have the answers, but AA has saved my life!! After rehab and basically destroying my life and family, it occurred to me that not only was I a drunk, but I was a drunk in debt!! After struggling with that, I decided to do something about it and try and help others in the same situation. I now work for a company that helps people get out of debt and have money for the future. I concentrate mainly on families with drug and alcohol problems since I can sincerely relate to their financial situations. I offer these services absolutely FREE. If you or anyone you know needs help in this area, please feel free to let me know. God bless you and your families and thank the Lord for AA and all the people just like me!!
Valerie <valerie0903@yahoo.com>
Maney House
Murfreesboro, TN USA - Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 08:13:24 (EDT)
I just got word this evening of the passing of a very special friend of this fellowship. Around 2 this afternoon, Thursday April 22 our friend Robert Smith Jr. - son of Dr. Bob Smith passed over. Smitty was probably the last living person who had witnessed the birth of AA. He was a young boy of 15 when his father had that first eventful meeting with Bill Wilson in May 1935.
He went into the hospital on the 7th of April, and has went downhill from there. I know you'll join me in sending prayers of comfort to Mona, his bride of only a couple of years.
Please help pass the word.

Today the amazing Bob showed us, with amazing grace, how to go to romp with the angels. Visitation will be Saturday night, April 24, at Memphis Funeral Home on Poplar Avenue. The funeral will be Sunday afternoon at the same place. Pastor Ed Mutum will be our spiritual leader. Burial will be in Nocona, Texas. Bob's wish was that, in lieu of flowers, donations be made to: Serenity Retreat League, Inc., 88 Riggs Place, South Orange, NJ 07079-2214.

Bob's friends number in the thousands. No one has been intentionally left off the e-mail list. Please share our loss with Bob's friends.

We visited Dr. Bob's home in 1978 (beer cans on the lawn i.e. rental house) We have been back a couple of times over the years (a foundation owns the house now and it has been restored to a Dr. Bob era)and we have experienced a spiritual sensation with each visit.

God Bless Smitty on his journey and all of us for what has taken place before to bring us all to where we are.

Jay D.
Jay D. <jsticks@charter.net>
Wilson County Friendship Group
Lebanon, TN USA - Saturday, April 24, 2004 at 09:02:31 (EDT)
We have a very powerful corss talk meeting that 've attended steadily for over 8 years. These men have helped me heal so many of my isasues with men due to an abusive manin my life and men leaving me all the time. I now have peace of mind with all men.
Everett A. <onespirit102@hotmail.com>
Men's Hot Seat DIscussion Group
Venice, CA USA - Friday, April 23, 2004 at 18:47:32 (EDT)
We have a very powerful corss talk meeting that 've attended steadily for over 8 years. These men have helped me heal so many of my isasues with men due to an abusive manin my life and men leaving me all the time. I now have peace of mind with all men.
Everett A. <onespirit102@hotmai9l.com>
Men's Hot Seat DIscussion Group
Venice, CA USA - Friday, April 23, 2004 at 18:47:15 (EDT)
Hi

I am coming to my son's wedding in August and will look forward to meeting some new friends at the meetings...I will be staying at Deerfield Beach and Jenson Beach (where the wedding is) and would love to know what meetings I can get to from there...last year I had the wonderful opportunity of visiting my son in New York and his fiancee Dana from Florida (hence the Florida wedding)...I got to chair two meetings in New York which was fantastic....
a day at a time I have got 8 and half years up .......
My daughter arrives from London in two weeks to live in Australia for a year, and possibly for good......that has been an answer to one of my prayers, my God does listen!!
I am so excited about her arrival..we will be travelling to the wedding together too, life is good........
Polly <pollyque2003@yahoo.com.au>
The Gallery Melbourne Australia
MELBOURNE, VICtoria AUSTRALIA - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 21:48:23 (EDT)
I see lots of people in meetings who are struggling with this disease. Each and every day just get that much easier for me. I have been sober since 10/31/01. I was diagnosed with a fatal brain tumor (Cancer) two months age 2/04. The Dr's say I have 12-18 months to live. I haven't given up on either disease. God made sure I was able to live the twelve steps of AA before I go home! How awesome!


Tim L <timlund64@yahoo.com>
Mt. Juliet Fellowship
Hermitage, TN USA - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 00:06:34 (EDT)
I see lots of people in meetings who are struggling with this disease. Each and every day just get that much easier for me. I have been sober since 10/31/01. I was diagnosed with a fatal brain tumor (Cancer) two months age 2/04. The Dr's say I have 12-18 months to live. I haven't given up on either disease. God made sure I was able to live the twelve steps of AA before I go home! How awesome!


Tim L <timlund64@yahoo.com>
Mt. Juliet Fellowship
Hermitage, TN USA - Wednesday, April 21, 2004 at 00:05:38 (EDT)
Hello I,m Doug B and AA saved my life thanks to the fellowship I now have a wounderful god in my life. I hope that everyone thats new will give god a chanch. IT works for me and thats a mirical god bless all. 14 mo.sober now and looking forward to another day tommorrow "god bless all" Doug B
Doug B <exthugdoug@aol.com>
Lifesavers
Nashvliie , TN USA - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 22:09:20 (EDT)
Thanks to the great people at A.A. I have finally found a new beginning. God Bless the Fellowship!
Anonymous <pinky823@nctc.com>
new hope
lafayette, tn USA - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 17:35:46 (EDT)
I have been clean and sober since December 17,2003.I woke up in jail not knowing what all I had done the night I was put in there.Then,my parents did not come and get me right away so I had to set there.I am really glad that they did because I would not have learned my lesson.I knew then it was time for me to get my life together,so I have been clean ever since.I am thankful for all of the programs that people have put together for people like me because I could not do it on my own.I am finally enjoying life today with my family.It has been worth all of the treatment that I have been through and I would do it over again if needed to be.All I can say to anyone is that we work so hard at staying drugged up or alcoholed up,why not work hard at staying clean and sober.God bless everyone in AA.
Tonya <Tonya46.1@netzero.com>
I have not picked one yet.
Blackshear, GA USA - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 13:14:20 (EDT)
I have been clean and sober since December 17,2003.I woke up in jail not knowing what all I had done the night I was put in there.Then,my parents did not come and get me right away so I had to set there.I am really glad that they did because I would not have learned my lesson.I knew then it was time for me to get my life together,so I have been clean ever since.I am thankful for all of the programs that people have put together for people like me because I could not do it on my own.I am finally enjoying life today with my family.It has been worth all of the treatment that I have been through and I would do it over again if needed to be.All I can say to anyone is that we work so hard at staying drugged up or alcoholed up,why not work hard at staying clean and sober.God bless everyone in AA.
Tonya <Tonya46.1@netzero.net>
I have not picked one yet.
Blackshear, GA USA - Tuesday, April 20, 2004 at 13:10:01 (EDT)
A signer asked "what takes us back out" I have found over the years one thing to watch out for is "complacency" It's possible to become too comfortable, fewer meetings, less service etc. Stay active, switch meetings sometimes. God Bless Us On Our Journey. Jay D.
Anonymous <jsticks@charter.net>
Wilson County Friendship Group
Lebanon, TN USA - Friday, April 16, 2004 at 07:30:51 (EDT)
Clean and Sober since Sept. 17, 2001. Living and loving life clean and sober.
Cheryl Ann <cheryl868@yahoo.com>
Long Beach, CA
Cypress, CA USA - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 at 14:27:40 (EDT)
WOW thisis pretty kewl!!! Life is a beautiful now that I leanred to live life on lifes terms and put my life in the care of HP and the fellowship of A.A. Thanks for being here and have a Blessed Day to you all.
Donna S.
Saturday Morning Group of St. Al's
Garfield, NJ USA - Tuesday, April 13, 2004 at 13:59:26 (EDT)
what is the biggest problem for us alkies , that takes us out ... i was wondering what you think?
Anonymous john

philly, pa USA - Saturday, April 10, 2004 at 22:59:36 (EDT)
My name is Kenneth and I am a alcoholic from Sweden,,Iam sober in 8 years,I am very grateful,I am sober to day,,,I live on a island in Baltic Sea ,I have internet now,I be so happy when I read what your sade on this site,,,I thanks God and all sisters and brothers in this new life,,,,Thanks so very mutch,,,,and sorry for my bad English,,I understand mutch but its not so easy to write for me.
Kenneth

Kenneth <stigerik1964@hotmail.com>
Visby
Hemse, Sweden - Friday, April 02, 2004 at 13:47:22 (EST)
Been sober for Four months, it feels good. Nice Site I dey here o.
MUGU LARRY <mugula@yahoo.com>
Big boys
Los Angeles, CA USA - Thursday, April 01, 2004 at 12:12:16 (EST)
i am sober 8 years and a few months, i am very greatful for the AA program it saved my life...i think if i do the next right thing good things will happen ... if i do bad things , i pay the price... the steps help me make adjustments in daily living, sometimes just saying i dont know and turning it over to my higher power and ask for help gets me though the tough times ... i suffer from depression at times and it is very hard at times , i have learned that five minutes from sucess and things work out...happy roads to recovery and peace...thank for the wall...it is a good thing...god bless...
jimmy wa <jmswgr69@yahoo.com>
greater levittown group
levittown, pa USA - Sunday, March 28, 2004 at 01:08:16 (EST)
Love to all
Beatle T. <beatle@nctc.com>
New Hope
Lafayette, Tn USA - Saturday, March 27, 2004 at 00:27:16 (EST)
Haven't been to a meeting in about 3 years, but I'm feeling good about my life since I've been sober.8yr. in Sept. Thats my problem, I'm getting too comfortable.Latly I've had some co-workers ask for help.Never thought I'd be a role model for something good. Been everywhere, done everything but the electric chair. Be damned if it didn't take a bunch of drunks to sober me up. And for that...I thank you. Anyone from the old Cherrymound Fri. meeting still around..Look me up. GOD Bless
Michael <Mmseidel747.comcast.net>
White House Tenn.
TN USA - Thursday, March 25, 2004 at 21:45:23 (EST)

Eileen D <emd1126@aol.com>
Keep it Simple (Bellevue)
Nashville, TN USA - Monday, March 22, 2004 at 20:51:40 (EST)
7-17-92
ALAN V. <av92aa@excite.com>
Serenity Hall/Anaheim,CA
Westminster, ca USA - Monday, March 22, 2004 at 19:01:47 (EST)
7-17-92
ALAN V. <av92aa@excite.com>
Serenity Hall/Anaheim,CA
Westminster, ca USA - Monday, March 22, 2004 at 19:01:46 (EST)
moving to the area searcing for al-anon meetings in Sparta, cookeville, etc
Anonymous <paperbirch@mchsi.com>
Bay st Louis, Waveland, MS al-anon
waveland, ms USA - Sunday, March 21, 2004 at 02:53:27 (EST)
I am so happy I found AA and can start to live my life over one day at time. It's great to see so many names here and to know there is help from fellow alcoholics. KEEP COMING BACK !!!!!!!
Eric <hezellefrow@zianet.com>


Las Cruces, NM USA - Sunday, March 14, 2004 at 08:33:45 (EST)
I'm comin home! Am moving back to Nashville around the 1st part of April. YAY!
Mickey M. <mickeytn@msn.com>
Happy Hour, Tulsa Oklahoma
USA - Friday, March 12, 2004 at 07:08:35 (EST)
Hi everyone! My name is Missy-Jo and I am an alcoholic, addict. I never thought I would ever feel any joy what so ever in my life when I came to the doors of AA. I was helpless, ninety pounds, traped and beat to the pulp. Needless to say I was full of shame, guilt and regret. It was my third time in AA that I have finally taken it seriously and I had to go where I went in order to believe that there was something better and that I truly wanted to be sober. I believe with all of my heart that step one for me was the day I walked away from the table full of needles and vodka and I believe My spiritual experience was the day I arrived in calgary and literally fell into my sponcors arms. I don't remember the drive there, all I know is that it took me eighteen hours and it was God driving, not me, I dodn't have the strenght. TOday, I am grateful to be recovering and I thank you all for that and I thank God.

'Make the most of what comes and the least of what goes'

Thanks and I wish you all another 24!
Missy-Jo <itchyban@37.com>
recovery
calgary, alberta canada - Thursday, March 11, 2004 at 12:40:06 (EST)
Just wanted to say how much I enjoyed reading "THE WALL" my sobriety date is February 28, 2000 A little over 2 years ago I took over as editor of our area AA newsletter we get a complimentary copy of The Messenger and I enjoy reading it while looking for ideas and stories. How lucky you are to have regular article contributors. Most of what I use is from AA books such as the Big Book, 12 & 12 As Bill see's it etc. I'm grateful to God for my sobriety and to AA for my life today.
Some of the pleas for help on THE WALL touched my heart I remember the fear. I'll pass along what I was told ~ Go to a meeting - say a prayer and don't pick up.
To those of you pleading for sponsors here in Buffalo we don't volunteers or assign sponsors we are told to ask someone ~ don't put it off, doing so only keeps you sick. When you listen at tables you will hear your story ask that person to be your sponsor (if they have been through the steps they can guide you) They also told me to "stick with the winners" they are not hard to find. My sponsor is fond of asking "How bad do you want it?" and "Are you willing to go to any lenghts?" so Just do it!
Thanks to God & AA!
Debi C
Victory
Buffalo, NY USA - Tuesday, March 09, 2004 at 10:28:04 (EST)
been in and out for 10 years,going on 2 years now,life only works sober
john b <johnnylaw66@hotmail.com>
book house/corona del mar mens stag/charlie street
costa mesa , ca USA - Tuesday, March 02, 2004 at 15:56:28 (EST)
Thanks to all AA members for my sobriety. I know now that if I don't drink today, tomorrow will be so much better. One day at a time saved my life!!!!!!
Anonymous

USA - Wednesday, February 25, 2004 at 08:52:50 (EST)
I want to thank God for letting me live another day without alcohol! Thank you God!
Chuck

tn USA - Thursday, February 19, 2004 at 18:52:37 (EST)
I got sober this time in August of 1966 in Nashville. There were others earlier starting in 1963 in fact you might say my efforts at staying sober started as early as 1960. That is the first time in my life I decided to quit drinking…. FOREVER (that was the decision I
made… to quit drinking forever!! I was in a brig, on board a ship bound for Japan. I was 17 years old. In Honolulu Hawaii I had
gotten drunk, stolen a car and was arrested driving the wrong way down an interstate highway. This was not the first time I had
driven drunk, it was not the first time I had been locked up, nor was it even the first time I had been locked up for stealing a car.
In fact this event in the Navy was just one more of a series of screw-ups starting when I was 14 and discovered alcohol.
While in that brig I begin to think. I was miserable, I was locked up in a very small cell (about the size of a closet as space on board a ship was at a premium) it was hot as hell for the brig was located close to the ships boiler rooms. The Marine Corps guards were harassing me for sport. I knew that the only reason I was there was because I had gotten drunk, stolen a car, driven like a lunatic down an interstate tried to evade the police and been arrested. My commanding officer had sentenced me to the brig at a Captains mast. This too was not a first for my first captains mast had occurred before I got out of boot camp. It too involved drinking. Well at this point of my life I thought this is getting old. I was able to conclude the common denominator was my drinking. Ever since I was 14 and started drinking whenever I found myself in trouble drinking was present. Now I didn’t get in
trouble every time I drank but every time I was in trouble I had been drinking. I decided to quit…. Forever! Forever lasted about
an hour after my ship arrived in Sasebo Japan and I got off the ship. Eventually through a series of screw-ups I was kicked out of
the U S Navy with a bad discharge.

My moment of truth came in a treatment center for indigent alcoholics located in Nashville Tennessee about six years later. It was
not my first treatment experience for by this time I had been in a couple of mental institutions another treatment center in and out
of AA for over a three-year period. I was divorced and had lost the right to see my children. I had multiple arrest by this time in
six different states I was jobless, I couldn’t hold a job. My gross income the last year of my drinking was $672. My bad
discharge, lack of education, institutional career, lack of any skills all added up to I was going nowhere (but downhill) fast.
Now back to October 1966. I was in a treatment center for indigent male alcoholics. It is significant that I mention I was the son
of the founder of the center. Special thought had been given to this in order to limit my contact with my father. In fact this suited
me, as we had not spoken in quite some time as the result of his refusal to be part of my problem. I now know this known as
tough love. I attended only his lectures never his groups.
Now I had all the proper credentials to be at the Samaritan Center I was sober about 90 days or so when an incident happened.
Ed another resident who was in his 60’s (I was 23 at this time) had started drinking again. We had come into the program about
the same time in august of that year. I encountered Ed on the porch of the center. When he saw me he began to cry. I mean he
just lost it, he began to sob and big tears ran down his checks as he looked at me and said, “I think it just terrible what your daddy’s
done to you”. Having no idea what he meant I asked him “what’s that Ed? What do you mean?” He answered, “making you live here with all of us drunks. You ain’t no alcoholic” I was stunned! I am sure that for that moment I was speechless.

It was at this time in my life that the reality of my disease became clear to me. Here was my friend Ed. At 60 something he had been homeless & indigent for several years. He sometimes drank a form of alcohol known to cause blindness or even death. Ed had lost everything that ever matter to him in his life through drinking. I’m sure at some time in the past his life had some measure of success, certainly more than I had in mine for I knew that he had supervised others in his prior work life. Here was Ed telling me “You ain’t no alcoholic!”
It was then that it came to me. How could Ed accept my alcoholism? He could not accept his own. How could this 60ish man accept that I had a disease that meant I was powerless over alcohol that I cannot start drinking without developing the phenomenon of craving? He could not accept this fact about himself. More importantly, it was this moment of my life that I realized it did not matter what he thought. When I drink they don’t put him in jail, they put me in jail. When I drink he doesn’t loose his job I loose my job. When I drink his wife doesn’t leave him my wife leaves me. He doesn’t loose his family I loose my family, he doesn’t loose his dignity I loose my dignity and so on. In other words I suddenly understood that the only person on
earth who had to grasp the fact of my powerlessness was Chris. My wife, parents, siblings, police, boss, minister, psychiatrist, as well as friends like Ed could decide I was or decide I was not an alcoholic and it did not matter. Nothing would change until I admitted and accepted this fact of my life. Then I could begin the process called recovery.
By the Grace of God,
Chris

Chris <Chris@Fajardo.org>
Caution Light Group
Louisville, KY USA - Wednesday, February 18, 2004 at 18:27:04 (EST)
If you are having trouble fitting into a group I am reminded of a story.

A fellow that was new to the area asked an old timer what the people were like here? The old timer asked him what the people were like where he was from? The person stated they were not very nice and hard to get to know. The old timer said well people here are about the same.

Another fellow new to the area asked the same old timer the same question and the old timer asked his same question “what were they like where you came from”. The fellow said they were great neighbors and friends. “Well said the old timer they are about the same here”.

In other words we will find what we are looking for if we look hard enough. God Bless you on your journey. Jay D.


Jay D. <jsticks@charter.net>
Wilson County Friendship Group
Lebanon, tn USA - Saturday, February 14, 2004 at 10:38:13 (EST)
I need help with my alcohol addiction. I have not attended any programs. Please contact me to help give me the courage to attend. My number is 615-593-1750.
James Kelley

Nashville, TN USA - Friday, February 06, 2004 at 13:06:48 (EST)
I think that I am having trouble finding an AA group that I feel comfortable with. This has caused me to not be as frequent or as consistent of an antendee as I should be. I continue to try to kick this addiction of Alcoholoism on my own and continually fail. I know that I can't do it on my own. I proved this again last night when tried to drink in moderation and became drunk and miserable once again.
Mark <lawdoc2005@justice.com>


Coralville, IA USA - Monday, February 02, 2004 at 00:37:26 (EST)
Anything I do today is only cause I'm sober!!! Thank you AA the book & the fellowship.. C.R.
Anonymous <ckr35@aol.com>
fri nite back to life mens group, south windsor ct.
USA - Sunday, February 01, 2004 at 11:43:31 (EST)
To all who endure to stay sober....thank you for being here for me.
Red <redfoxy@earthlink.net>
5 O'Clock Happy Hour
Cookeville, TN USA - Wednesday, January 28, 2004 at 10:36:02 (EST)
Was drunk
Was crazy
Was violent
Was divorced X2
Got AA
Got sponsor
Got home group
Got sober
Got Higher Power
Got serenity
Got love
Got life
Got to help others
Gots way outweigh the Wases

Doug W <DouglasWelton@AOL.COM>
Full Moon
Brentwood, TN USA - Tuesday, January 27, 2004 at 18:56:44 (EST)
"Be thankful your alive cause your on your higher powers time now"
Josh
park 40
knoxville, TN USA - Monday, January 26, 2004 at 14:11:15 (EST)
Years ago, while walking through a customer's back yard I noticed a flash of light coming from the base of a shrub. Curious I went over to the bush and parted the branches to see what had created the reflection. I discovered a tiny bottle that had been there for a long time. I picked up the container and marveled at the tiny, colorful flower and plant trapped inside with dew lining the inside of the bottle. Holding it up to the sunlight I thought how beautiful. But as I turned the bottle slightly towards the rear I noticed how scoured and dirty it appeared. I turned it back to the front and once again marveled at it's beauty. I realized than what you all had been trying to tell me. How I view my life will determine my spiritual being. God Bless You Jay D. LD 1/30/78
Jay D. <jsticks@charter.net>
Wilson County Friendship Group
Lebanon, TN USA - Monday, January 26, 2004 at 10:46:28 (EST)
If you pray to move mountains,
God will help you move mountains,
but if you pray to move mountains,
be prepared to get up early and bring a shovel...
Hunter O. <hunter@hunter-oaks.com>
New to area - none yet
Murfreesboro, TN USA - Friday, January 23, 2004 at 13:10:05 (EST)
"One day at a Time"

Tim M <timjilliam@ameritech.net>
Lemont Oaks
Lemont, IL USA - Thursday, January 22, 2004 at 11:50:56 (EST)
Good Morning. Have a wonderful webpage. Sobriety is great isn't it? So is technology-I can wake up at 5:00 on a Saturday and talk with someone on the other side of America.
Never got up that early during my drinking years. :)
Thanks to those groups and individuals who man your office and your webmaster. Happy Sobriety.
Sharon E.
Claremore Pioneer Group
Claremore, OK USA - Saturday, January 17, 2004 at 08:01:45 (EST)
HI MANCHESTER and LEBANON! valerie here in madison enjoying every minute of aa! hope you all are well.
valerie <theonlyvalerie@netscape.net>
serenity house, madision
madison, tn USA - Thursday, January 15, 2004 at 12:34:24 (EST)
Un saludo muy afectuoso para todos los miembros de AA en los grupos Latinos.Muchas 24 horas desde Canada!!
Manuel G.
Amor y Paz
Toronto, ON Canada - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 at 16:30:34 (EST)
I need a real sponsor!!!!!!!!!!
I done it before and was clean and sober for over 7 yrs and yes I have relapsed but I am also seeking someone who can really related to me and my situation.
looking for a little help, anyone should feel free to e-mail me or catch me online, I'm always willing to listen. Like my Daddy always said a person can never possibly learn too much but they can always know to little!!!!!!!!!


HELP ME I'M SINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anonymous <hardmn40@aol.com>
none yet
fairview, tn USA - Wednesday, January 14, 2004 at 04:00:24 (EST)
I would just like to say Hello to all of Bill.W and Dr. Bob's friends and to take Care.
Kyle <cabottrule62>
Journey Continues
Grande Prairie, ab Ca - Monday, January 12, 2004 at 19:02:38 (EST)
I cannot express in words how grateful I am for a gift recieved from a gentleman from central Tennessee. In fact, I've never personally met Scott L., however hearing a tape of an amazing weekend at the Rock Eagle Workshop that included him and Earl H., I was given an amazing gift. I have been clean for over three years but I don't count being sober until approximately a year ago when I heard my sponsor say to me that I needed to work the program and not just the fellowship. I then really heard for the first time, and recieved real heart knowledge of the fact that I was so sick that I couldn't stay sober on the fellowship alone and I would need the program also.
Amazingly, at the same time, I heard that the fellowship is great, vitally important to my recovery but I better get myself a program or I am going to die. It was a combination of these messages at exactly the time I was in so much pain and was ready to hear them that I was given this gift. It was clearly a spiritual experience of the educational variety. Thank you very much. I hope to actually meet you sometime.
Will D. <dempsey_will@hotmail.com>
8111 Tuesday Night Big Book Study
Atlanta, GA USA - Sunday, January 11, 2004 at 20:47:14 (EST)
happy new year
the last time i was in nashville i painted the town red white blue orange etc.lol. but now iam sober and a meeting or two is at the top of my list. i will be in brentwood on 2-15-04 to 2-20-04 if anyone can hook me up with ride.
it wood make my vist won to remember.looking forward to sharing with yall.lol.one day at a time.
tom. h. <bonedigger 1100@aol .com >
wall lampliters n.j.
red bank n.j., nj USA - Thursday, January 01, 2004 at 20:02:31 (EST)
It's a great life. I see many young people living in hell, due to Oxycotin abuse. There is help, it's simple, not easy. Anything worth something, isn't easy.
Fred S <painter3455@yahoo.com>
Chelsea Mixed Nuts/ Winthrop Sunday Morning
Winthrop, MA. USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 at 16:02:29 (EST)
Hello to all! Happy New Year! Hope you guys all stay sober during this New Year, b/c without you I know I couldn't!
Jeff T. <jtaylor4@hotmail.com>


Knoxville, TN USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2003 at 06:50:12 (EST)
I've been trying to stay sober by myself for the last 3 months. I've fallen off the wagon 3 times and decided I needed some help. I'm going to my first meeting tonight, 12/30/2003.
Larry <bnash37220>


Brentwood, tn USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2003 at 15:51:37 (EST)
Going into rehab i didn't that i was and addict. I learned in there however that i am. "Hello, my name is Megan and i am and alcohloic and an addict". I made the best of friends in there. I learned that i don't want to go back to where i came from. I am only 19 and i have my whole life to live. I hope all of your sobriety is going well. Mine is but i need a temporaty sponcer. Right now i am in melborne, fl. I am going to go to the Awakinnings house in Boca Roton, Fl. Have a good day. And remember to "live one day at a time." "one drink will get drunk, if you don't belive it try getting drunk without it".
Megan
Megan <temptres_FPSOA@yahoo.com>
i haven't found one yet i just got out of a rehab center in Greorga
st.augustine, fl. USA - Thursday, December 25, 2003 at 10:25:16 (EST)
Hey All,

I'm recently our of rehab at Cumberland Heights for alcohol abuse. I'm currently in the Smyrna I.O.P. group for the next few months. I'm looking for a temp. or perm. sponser. Live in the Murfreesboro, TN area. If anyone is interested in helping or knows of anyone, I'd truly appreciate that information. God Bless all and Merry Christmas.

Valerie
Valerie M <valerie0903@yahoo.com>


Murfreesboro, TN USA - Wednesday, December 24, 2003 at 20:16:36 (EST)
I lost everything to drinking once... Found AA and got help and was back on my feet... Thought I could handle life on my own... back to drinking and I am in the process of screwing it all up again. I'm going to a meeting TONIGHT! Pray for me. God Bless!
Anonymous

Kingston Springs, TN USA - Tuesday, December 23, 2003 at 19:33:28 (EST)
Happy Holidays everybody.
Anonymous

nashville, tn USA - Tuesday, December 23, 2003 at 14:20:24 (EST)
Have a safe and sober Christmas and New Year's everyone. Thank God that we don't have to worry about all those sobriety checkpoints today. Bill W. and Dr. Bob managed to create the best thing I have found in my life up to this date.
Kim S <sager73169@alcoholicsanonymous.com>
Every Night At Six
Nashville, Tn USA - Monday, December 22, 2003 at 16:03:29 (EST)
Sober season´s greetings from Finland!
Pekka
Kellari, Espoo, Finland
USA - Sunday, December 21, 2003 at 20:16:18 (EST)
Hello to all who may read this. The program works for those who work it, thats a fact.God bless to all over the holliday. Doug B.
DOUG B <WWW.EXTHUGDOUG@AOL.COM>
LIFESAVERS
NASHVILLE, TN USA - Friday, December 19, 2003 at 16:15:48 (EST)
Meeting makers make it
Matthew L. <www.mjlnjdd2003@yahoo.com>
Utopia
nashville, tn USA - Tuesday, December 16, 2003 at 10:31:14 (EST)
this wall is just what i need to say what i need to say..I LOVE YOU DANA..and i know that you can get clean and sober..all it takes is one day at a time..Everyone around you is with you..We all LOVE you...You tell me you're done with this addiction...but when i see you going off with those people you hang with..i can't help but kick in and think you are doing it again. you tell me to have faith in you, but sweetheart..you have to have faith in yourself to begin your journey into a new world of soberity..I'm with ya babe...i cry with you, i smile with you, i laugh with you, and i get mad with you..but always know that i am here with you!!!! i don't HATE you, i HATE your desease!!!


Paula <demihosa62>


Fall river, Ma USA - Tuesday, December 16, 2003 at 00:47:16 (EST)
So glad to be sober!
Sabra K. Danielson
Decisions
Port Angeles, WA USA - Monday, December 15, 2003 at 22:44:28 (EST)
hey everybody...just wanted you to know...there ARE A.A. chat rooms out here in cyber-space.....

ck out two of them on the Robertson Co AA group's website:

www.RobertsonCoAA.homestead.com

click on one of the links that says: A.A.Chat Room

have a merry, merry, SOBER Christmas!
Jay S. <jayswafford@yahoo.com>
Robertson Co.A.A.Group
Springfield, TN USA - Monday, December 08, 2003 at 11:23:22 (EST)
my first visit to this sight. was sober than fell back into the HOLE.Sorry to all of you who has the faith. Will start again.with GODS help and yours. Jim M.
Jim M. <bjhills2002>
North surburban
noblesville, In USA - Monday, December 08, 2003 at 11:07:44 (EST)
I kept coming back, and I'm thankful that I did. After each relapse in a period of over 10 years, I thought that I was hopeless, that I had been born that way, I was not at fault. I finally got sober, behind the "walls", and took suggestions that I had heard for years. I have not drank or used since. I am so grateful. I will graduate from college next quarter. I have friends today in the fellowship who I love, and I am loved in return. I kept coming back, and God, never left me, He kept me alive and now I get to work with others. The gifts of the program are priceless. Thank-you for my recovery. GRATEFUL, In WASHINGTON, State.
Marilyn

USA - Saturday, December 06, 2003 at 13:17:18 (EST)
I DID THE BEST I COULD AND NOW THAT I KNOW BETTER I DO IT..8 YEARS LATER I STILL KEEP IT IN TODAY.
Anonymous
RIDGELAND GROUP
RIDGELAND, MS USA - Friday, December 05, 2003 at 21:45:02 (EST)
Go to a meeting, call your sponsor.
Dave W.

Franklin, TN USA - Tuesday, December 02, 2003 at 01:51:46 (EST)
thank God for AA. keep on trudgin. everythings going to be allright.
fred b
capitol hill
okc, ok USA - Friday, November 28, 2003 at 23:55:55 (EST)
Alcoholism is a FAMILY DISEASE.
The family needs help too!! - Find out more by visiting our website http://www.alanon.org.za

For family members, alcoholism causes a progressive inability to predict their own behaviour because of the growing pre-occupation with and reaction to another person’s drinking. Generally speaking, if a person wonder whether alcoholism is the problem, it probably is. Family members need to hear that the emotions they feel are a normal reaction to alcoholism. Frequently, they experience a free-floating but persistent fear. They are afraid of the alcoholic’s reactions and are prepared to settle for ‘peace at any price’. They worry about bills, accidents and job losses (the alcoholic’s and, in some cases, their own). As they attempt to deal with the unpredictable irrational behaviour of the drinker, they become confused and increasingly guilty and pre-occupied. As their lives become compulsively centered on trying to get the alcoholic to stop drinking through unsuccessful attempts to manipulate and control, most of their actions only enable the alcoholic to continue the drinking. Family members are caught in a cycle of repetitive non-helpful behaviour that leaves them frustrated, angry and alone. They feel helpless and hopeless. ‘Al-Anon Faces Alcoholism’ - Betty Reddy

Anonymous <alanongso@iafrica.com>
Kempton Al-Anon Family Group, South Africa
South Africa - Friday, November 28, 2003 at 07:35:06 (EST)
i want to share a story about my friend cynthia, her sobriety date was march 13 1940. her father was a
lawyer and gave her an address of a secret organization that could help her with her alcholism. this
address was on clinton st. brooklyn ny. she rang the door bell and a woman came to the door it was
lois bill w.'s wife she was feeding the drunks that bill brought home . cynthia was directed to the parlor
where 10 people were sitting she told them that her father sent her to this address and because of her
drinking and she told them that all her friends abandoned her. bill turned around and told her now you
have 10 friends also bill became her sponsor because in 1940 there were only 4 woman sober in the
aa program . biill spoke at her first anniversary cynthia's father told her to stick closely to this guy, it
seems like he knows what he's talking about. the ny archieves gave her a 60 year coin 3 years ago
1 week later she passed away sober at age 91.
alan s.
never too young aa group bronx ny
USA - Wednesday, November 26, 2003 at 08:33:36 (EST)
Hooray for AA. Life begins at 40. Surrender is painless, fulfilling and rewarding. I recommend sobriety for all!
Eric P <lglmntality@aol.com>
The May Club
Oklahoma City, OK USA - Tuesday, November 25, 2003 at 17:33:00 (EST)
I was a real bad alcoholic all of my life, well for about 9 years and i met a person when I knew that I did not want to live the way thast I was living I went to several meetings and I knew that it wqs the only way to keep my faith was to try to do something for the good and I di I have one thing to say to people who want advice. Drinking does not solve any problems, or make the problems go away, in fact, it can and will make the problems worse. Now with 7 years of sobrity I can live happy and not feel guilty. Thasnks to the people who believed in me and for my higher power for giving me the strength, to carry out my life for the good...
Anonymous <jestaturtle@yahoo.com>
Behavioral Health Care Center
Bonner Springs Kansas, Ks USA - Tuesday, November 25, 2003 at 09:02:45 (EST)
sup every1
Anonymous <musikangel4life >


bellevue, wa USA - Monday, November 24, 2003 at 21:12:30 (EST)


...on this date in 1989...God allowed me another chance at life.....


Thank You A.A. for saving my life..one day aat a time!



Jay S. <jayswafford@yahoo.com>
Robertson Co (TN) AA Group
Springfield, TN USA - Monday, November 24, 2003 at 12:32:21 (EST)
November 20, 2003.
Although I accepted I was an alcoholic for a number of years, I took no active action to heal. Monday, I go into a residential treatment facility for the first time. At 34, I am well off, actually in love with my husband and educated. :)...but I thought I could try mental hospitals, detox and quiting on my own ("the easier, way")--without success. What has truely changed my perspective is digging into the 12 steps and finding out what this means to me. Why was I chosen by God to have the opportunity to be sober? I truely believe my life can someday benefit another. Thanks for listening.... MH
Anonymous <holland_michelle2003@yahoo.com>
Lebanon Tennessee
Lebanon, TN USA - Friday, November 21, 2003 at 23:14:33 (EST)
Great site. I am in Franklin TN working. At the Best Western
off 65S at HiWay 96. Email me with your meeting times please.
Frank B. Tate <frank9t@aol.com>
Central Group
Memphis, TN USA - Thursday, November 20, 2003 at 23:34:14 (EST)
been away for way too long 1-28-98.
dry relapse will kill.
destroyed my family and loving wife. she belongs to the other fellowship. miss her too. anybody going to kic in baytown, texas tell kristine c. imiss her
wes c.

USA - Thursday, November 20, 2003 at 14:56:56 (EST)
Hello everyone. I'm a new comer to this site, but I can relate to everyone who is posting.I'm 29 years old and drinking has all but taken my life.I'm about to loose my wife, my house and everything else that ever mattered to me and I don't know how to stop it.I'm afraid to go to AA, I think because of talking with strangers about my addiction. If anyone can give me some good advise I would love to here from you.Sincerely caltheterrible.
Anonymous <caltheterrible@yahoo.com>


Nashville, Tn. USA - Wednesday, November 19, 2003 at 12:42:55 (EST)
Hi all PS2 fans from DJ in the UK
Daniel James <danielps2@msn.com>


Hunitngdon, Uk - Sunday, November 09, 2003 at 07:09:10 (EST)
Hi all. Well with wall in my name, I just had to add it to the wall, You all take care now .Dave.
Dave <davewallmx5@msn.com>


Huntingdon, uk - Sunday, November 09, 2003 at 07:02:38 (EST)
gratefull to be sober today,on the 12th of this month I will have been sober 6 yrs.New to the wall and my computer so feeling my way along.
wayne b
everynight at 6
nash, tn USA - Saturday, November 08, 2003 at 23:36:53 (EST)
i would like to express my gratitude to this simple program which has truly changed my life. for with out it i would be dead.
julie b <emeral282003@yahoo.com>
dry dock
owensboro, ky USA - Wednesday, November 05, 2003 at 23:56:34 (EST)
Greetings to all. I will be relocating to Lawrenceburg T.N
in March of 2004. My Father lives in Waynesboro and I would like to establish a network before I get there. I am a 39 year old male New in sobriety and would appreciate any correspondance. e-mail nyteking1692@lycos.com God Bless.
P.D
Anonymous <nyteking1692@lycos.com>
Dinosaurs Blue Point N.Y
Blue Point, N.Y USA - Monday, November 03, 2003 at 13:40:38 (EST)
I have been trying to find meeting places in Joplin,MO without any luck. I wish to stop drinking before my life is totally destroyed by it. I just can't seem to find any locations here. I started with a few drinks then it went to where that is all I ever thought about until I passed out. I know I'm destroying my life but I seem unable to stop. I seem to be on a roller-coaster with no destination, I only think about the next drink because it numbs the pain of my life which is a mess. Please Help!
Anonymous <ramboprettywoman@yahoo.com>


Joplin, MO USA - Thursday, October 30, 2003 at 19:42:03 (EST)
Thank God for AA!
Anonymous <ceciliam64@comcast.net>
5 x 5 Group
Smyrna, TN USA - Thursday, October 30, 2003 at 18:39:46 (EST)
Just wanted to sign the wall. I haven't had to have a drink in over 14 years thanks to the fellowship of AA
Anonymous
Love & Laughter
Nashville, Tn. USA - Wednesday, October 29, 2003 at 20:10:09 (EST)
i dont know how to start this or why im even doing this. i guess i just need someone to talk to. im not sure if aa is where i need to be or maybe i just need to voice out all the nasty feelings ive been experiencing about myself these past couple of days. i went out with my girlfriends friday and got so drunk i blacked out not passed out but blacked out when i came to i was in some guys care and it was 6:30 in the morning, if that couldnt have been the worst part i was supposed to be at home to take care of my kids. i cant remember what happend and im not really sure i want to, i can only imagine. i have never felt so low and ashamed of my actions in my life. so i made a decision and a promise to myself that i would quite drinking. i got on this website found out when a meeting was. got in my car and went and couldnt go in. my heart started beating so fast and i just couldnt bare the thought of actually going in and telling abunch of strangers how i let my family and myself down by my actions. aa isnt new to me, im 27 years old and by the age of 21 i had been through 4 rehabs due to my drinking. i dont drink all the time but i found myself justifing my drinking by telling myself that. i binge. once i start i dont know when to stop. the blackouts are getting worse and my hangovers seem to last all weekend. i'm ashamed of the things ive done and i dont want to be that person anymore. i dont know what else to say thanks for listning to ramp and rave.
Anonymous <babgrlj26@bellsouth.net>


clarksville, tn USA - Monday, October 13, 2003 at 02:10:50 (EDT)
I think I am an alcoholic,lately my drinking has taken control of me, I want to get help,I have a list of AA meetings in my hand but I don't have the courage to attend, I'm afraid...can somebody help me get there, please?
sheila <ncbausch@yahoo.com>


USA - Thursday, October 09, 2003 at 17:22:15 (EDT)
When I first entered the rooms of AA I assumed that it was all about quitting drinking. Little did I know that it was also about changing my life. Thanks to the fellowship of AA, I now know how to enjoy life on life's terms!
Anonymous <TINARUST @ AOL.COM>
Sterling Park AA
Sterling , VA USA - Tuesday, October 07, 2003 at 15:06:03 (EDT)
William Hoyt (Bill from Rockford, IL) Call your brother ...8304315 you know the area code.
Anonymous <Walnut1418@aol. Com>
Chicago, IL
USA - Saturday, October 04, 2003 at 21:37:34 (EDT)
By the grace of God I am a member of Reality, and it hurts
Vickie

USA - Wednesday, October 01, 2003 at 15:16:01 (EDT)
Love to all of you, especially new comers.
Jerry H <ThHoop@aol.com>
Bellevue Group
Nashville, TN USA - Sunday, September 28, 2003 at 19:40:26 (EDT)
from the "Things we Cannot change" area...i am sad to inform fellow A.A.'s that Cero S., long time Robertson County A.A.Group member, has passed away (09/27/03).

Cero, was active as secretary, treasurer, IGR, district reps, & contact for Central Office in Springfield/Robertson County TN for many years, & the "most quoted" A.A. member i have ever met...

He was always there when the newcomer or "retread" needed the helping hand of A.A.

He will be sadly missed... :(


Jay S. <robertsoncoaa@yahoo.com>
Robertson County (TN) AA Group
Springfield, TN USA - Sunday, September 28, 2003 at 19:01:44 (EDT)
I'm grateful to be alive today! Thanks to my hp and all the support from the fellowship. As long as I stay clean nothing can be as bad as I was when I was using. When I can't we can. Peace
Nicodemus <nicrobinson@comcast.net>


plymouth, mi USA - Friday, September 19, 2003 at 02:33:38 (EDT)
Hello and Thank you AA for bringing me to life and too GOD
was lost but now I´m found.Greetings to you AA brothers and sisters from Iceland.
Anonymous
Iceland
Reykjavik, iceland - Monday, September 15, 2003 at 08:30:37 (EDT)
I have only had 5 days sober,but they have been better than any of my using days.I owe that to the fellowship of A.A.
Anonymous <philliplightfoot2002@yahoo.com>
moondogs
nashville, Tn USA - Sunday, September 14, 2003 at 18:28:06 (EDT)
serenity courage wisdom
my name is alister <celtic232@aol.com>
crieff scotland
glasgow, USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 at 06:55:29 (EDT)
The Steps are the greatest thing to happen to me ever. God keeps me sober today, and me constantly trying to live right and get closer with God is what I think about instead of heroin and Alchohol!! SPIRITUAL AWAKENING!! Don P is a great inspiration, and I'm happy to say I've met him. P House!!
Aristotle <Aristos12@hotmail.com>


Beverly, MA USA <celtic232@aol.com>
crieff scotland
glasgow, USA - Friday, September 12, 2003 at 06:55:29 (EDT)